Running from my own emotions so anxiety looms. I know if I jump, I’m jumping into an ocean of regret. Boom. Belly flop. A lack of grace, for just a moment, now all I want to do is hide my face. Take me to another place where no one knows my name, a secret island full of wild so I can lose myself in an illusion that I actually can be tame. I’m the only one to blame, but I keep running, running, running, trying to wash it off like I’m not forever stained.
Let’s be alone together.
Lay your head in my lap
In your mind I find shelter.
You’re smarter than I
_____so forgive me when I grow shy,
_____afraid to share my point of view
Like my ideas are invalid
Or my opinions untrue.
I open a book with you in the room.
A few moments pass until
The silent air is filled with vibrations
_____of your anxious depths
_____in the form of rhythmic finger taps.
Your eyes — black holes,
_____vacuums into the ages of your
_____dark tempered soul.
The spark of a bowl clouds the space
_____and my judgement.
It rolls as I pass it to my left.
You reach out, the hair of your brawned chest peaks out.
Your thumb brushes mine
_____and I love it.
Stimulation speeds through every inch of my form. From the crown of my skull as he tugs my hair, to my lips, numb from his cocaine dipped cigarette, down every vertebrae in my curved spine, to my toes, curled in anticipation. It is there where his toes grip the tips of my soles so he may have me in grasp until he, not I, releases the embrace. Entangled in his tender touch, I feel his brawn surround. Though, if I had to choose, brains would be a more likely foe, for his intelligence is beyond my own comprehension. Never been kissed? Hardly. But an embrace as such I have yet to experience.
Sometimes it’s like that.
Like a diamond emerging from the crust
you gotta dig, dig, dig, you gotta dust.
This just in, “the biggest diamond of all,
is lying just below where her ego falls!”
With clothes on, I see you naked.
Watching your soul breathe, I hit ecstasy.
I have no exes, see I don’t know how to act sometimes
_____when I’m in your presence.
Please forgive me if I overthink this treasure.
Mind stimulated, no need for physical pleasure.
With every touch I’m frozen, dripping
_____Like an icicle in the desert.
I could eat you up for
_____lunch, dinner and dessert.